Things are really weird lately. There has been some kind of eerie flux taking place.
I make sense of life by organizing but this random list is the best I can do right now...
- I'm taking the day off for personal reasons and I feel guilty. As in genuine, "I really shouldn't be absent at such a critical time...my absence will leave holes in the success of my company." This is strange to me. It implies I care about my work. This has never happened before.
- I no longer feel trapped. But this bothers me. I feel I've been distracted from the things I want out of life because I'm focused on working. But I don't feel trapped by working. This is plain confusing.
- I've been feeling wildly, ravenously hungry for something. But I don't know what that something is. And it's not food.
- I am grateful and smug at the same time. These two things are not harmonious together.
What the hell is going on??????